You know what sucks? Monday disguised as Tuesday! While I have to say I enjoyed the long weekend going back to work still sucks regardless of the day.
A long time ago, when I was 19, I was diagnosed with a Mitral Valve Prolapse. Basically it means your heart valve doesn’t close all the way to stop the flow of blood to your heart. With this can come anxiety. For years I took medication to help my heart and my anxiety. Well last year I went to a cardiologist who ran a bunch of tests and decided my valve wasn’t bad enough to meet the new MVP standards. What does that mean you ask? I had no idea. Finally my GP explained it meant I no longer needed any medication. Over the course of a few months last year I finally managed to stop taking any meds. Honestly I wasn’t sure how it would go but since I knew Matt and I would be considering children soon it made sense and really I was ready.
Over the past few months I’ve only had a few instances where I started to feel anxious. The doc gave me something I could take if I ever had an attack that I didn’t feel I could control. I think I’ve done a really good job of trying not to take anything. For the most part I do pretty well at getting myself through them. Today was not one of those days. As I was sitting at work this afternoon I started to feel my chest tighten up. I could feel my heart beating and I felt as though I couldn’t breathe, like a weigh on my chest. It was nothing too bad but I just couldn’t shake it.
I’m not really sure what brought it on. It could have been the Zyrtec I took at lunch. I haven’t taken any in a while and the psedu stuff can get me sometimes. Needless to say that after feeling like this for a few hours I had to come home and take something. Now I’m just sitting on the couch listening to music waiting for things to get back to normal.
3 thoughts on “Anxiety sucks!”
Aww I’m sorry to hear that. And I’m glad things got better for you. with the exceptions of some anxiety attacks here and there.
Wow that’s really scary! It’s good though that your heart is better than before, even if you still might have occasional anxiety. I’ve had anxiety before and had to take a pill occasionally but it’s not related to my heart (turns out my birth control pill was a big factor – hence why i wont go back on hormonal bc)
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